gypsyhrt

lingering thoughts after a conversation....

2009-12-08T06:29:50Z

So, in the last week and a half, I've talked to 2 men that served overseas- Both returning after over a year in the middle east....and both conversations were enlightening, straightforward, and just kinda haunt me.
One told me of a severely adverse reaction to his Mom waking him up for breakfast...it was plain to see that he was just enjoying a good chat about racing, football, family, crazy encounters between me & customers...lol more on that later...
His experiences caused him to react as if she was a threat to him, and though he was on his way home & just counting the days til he retired, it felt as if he was almost hesitant to be home around his wife and kids. I asked him about his fam, and you could see how much they meant to him....yet I wonder if he was ready to be there with them...

The send guy I spoke with today.....very pleasant, open, yet cautious. We spoke of his being a fan of the Patriots, how he was going tyo send his wife to get his gift, a jersey and/or the sweatshirt he found in our shop.
We talked about his being overseas, about the other guy I with whom I had spoken. He smiled, said he found it odd some of the things that the other had done. Even with over a year there, he didn't react that way- and he had direct conflicts.
He spoke of how what he had to do had to be dealt with within his mind,heart & soul.( That's the best way I can say that) and how no matter what, noone comes away from that experience the same person that they were arriving there, no matter if they saw direct conflict or not.

Then he spoke of how not so long ago he wouldn't have been able to handle being in the shop, not being able yo see what was in areas blocked by displays, etc. And he spoke of the pride he took in doing his duty for this country, of betrayals from those they serve & protect. ( I can't elaborate on that- It would get me voicing my opinions and fired up again) On a positive note, we also spoke of his wife, how she was there throughout his process of getting back into life back home with all the difficulties that come with that.
We spoke of a person I admire- Pat Tillman, of his brother & family. Amazing that so much came after a simple "hello, Who are you a fan of?"
I'm not sure why these talks haunt me. I mean, we talked about a LOT. Not just what I've touched on here. It showed me that people still feel they can just talk to me , even though I'm a stranger.
I thanked both of them for thier service and hours later realized they both linger in my mind....

gypsyhrt @ 2009-01-18T00:43:00

2009-01-18T06:05:08Z

well, well...Where has everyone vanished to? What's new with ya??? I know...I've not been around much myself....Hope y'all are all doing well.....It's been interesting for me of late...lot of folks that fell off the earth are resurfacing....I'm not sure if that's good or bad...lol

trurth about friends

2008-11-05T04:16:15Z

lol, where do I even begin?

I am sad, angry, hurt, confused. I just found out a person dear to me passed away June 24, 2008. None of our mutual friends bothered to let me know. I, being me, was worried that no matter how I tried to reach him, I couldn't. So I called his parents' home, left a message. His mother, crying, called me back to tell me he was gone. Dammit, I felt horrible- I unintentionally added to her hurt. Then after a brief conversation, a few things came to light that he never bothered to tell me that creates a lot of questions.
I apologized repeatedly to his mom...I'm not sure if I ought to contact them during the holidays, etc.

Been awhile....

2008-08-06T04:11:34Z

since I've been on here. Haven't been up to writing much....think I'm getting tired of people telling me what they think I want to hear.

I've been trying to get the shop's website back up to date. Talk about a new challenge...lol. Been trying to get back into my photography, stir up creative juices .....

so what's new on your end of things? Do tell.......

inspired by an article....

2007-07-13T03:51:50Z

I read about Marcus Luttrell who will be signing his book at naval air station norfolk.....
so after reading this:
http://content.hamptonroads.com/story.cfm?story=128302&ran=199168

I wrote this :

Though I stand alone,
You are all here with me,
Silenced voices telling the story,
Of a day never forgotten.
Unknown to me was why,
And each day I still ask.
Yet I try to keep moving forward,
Living life- not just for myself,
But for those I needed to face.
Letting them see thru my eyes,
Showing that part of you still lives,
In me,
That irrevocably ties me to them,
As we struggle to heal.
Tears fall, words are lost,
Emotions war within,
Pain showing us we’re still alive,
As tears and more words cleanse a soul,
Memories haunt us all,
And inspire us to keep living.

thoughts on this , pls............

thoughts for vt & friends there

2007-04-19T04:57:45Z

a small flame dances between wind and shadow,
a symbol of hope, unity and sorrow-
between friends, family and strangers.
reaching out to embrace those left standing,
and feeling the chill of emptiness-
no words, tears, nothing- eases the pain
answers come slowly, if at all
creating more questions, giving no solace-
those lost to us force us all to realize-
tomorrows are not promised,
nor given to anyone,
we only have moments to share,
to live...to love...to laugh-
or to cry.

hi!

2007-01-13T05:41:20Z

yes I know I am a very slack ass individual for not posting more often. Go ahead shoot me LOL- truly though its been quite eventful, ( I'm hoping that will change for the better;)! Hope all of you are doing well, catch me up on how you are doing etc, will ya? I'll try n do more up here.
take care, see yas soon!

ok y'all- pls help....

2007-01-13T05:38:00Z

I am biased towards this particular request for help- If you don't already know,
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Thanks!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Holiday Ramblings

2006-12-20T05:43:51Z

Reliving memories through the eyes of a child
Smiling as the delight and laughter fill the air,
After having tried to stay awake the night before,
Each child trying to see Santa’s sleigh,
Or hear reindeers’ bells as midnight nears-
As I sit watching those who surround me,
I cherish each moment shared,
For the child in me awakens yet again.

long time no see

2006-11-21T05:32:32Z

yes I know, I've been absent on here.Lot goin on but I dont want to bore ya with my bitchin n whinin LOL. Hope you all are doing well. have a great thanksgiving, if you partake in this holiday!

I give up

2006-08-16T05:13:10Z

here's a disturbing update on zaba.....the website thats posts personal info on you for free & sells your ssn

Thanks Michelle -- Hi everyone -- following is an email from a friend of mine (an attorney in CA) -- I haven't done this yet but she has, and has provided some helpful input -- xoxo Richelle

I tried to use that zaba email (re: the zabasearch.com website that stores everyone's info.) provided in a prior warning to request that my personal info. be removed. I received an email right back and here's what everyone needs to know in order to request that they're stuff be deleted from the database:

In order to create, edit, or block your record and/or to add a ZabaLink, all for free, you must make that request in writing and mail it to: ZabaTools, 2828 Cochran Street # 397, Simi Valley, California 93065. Receiving requests by mail allows us to verify and process your requests quickly. Records created, edited and ZabaLinks added may take up to several weeks to appear in ZabaSearch. Records requested to be blocked are typically processed the next business day after receiving the request. You will be notified by e-mail when you request enters our system and then once more when the requested records have been adjusted. Please specify if you want to create, edit, delete a record and/or add a free ZabaLink, e-mail address or URL to your record. If you add a free ZabaLink, please include the e-mail address where you would like messages blindly forwarded to from your ZabaLink.

In order to fill your request your letter must contain the following information to insure we create, edit or delete the correct records. After you confirm by e-mail that we processed your request, your letter and the information you provided in it will be shredded. You will have created a record for yourself just as you like it and will be eventually given online tools to adjust your information as you like live in ZabaSearch 24/7.

1. E-mail address
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7. Sign and date your request

3 days later.

2006-08-11T02:13:52Z

LMAO....where do I start? Work wants me in asap. The fellas at work think I oughtta be bac in already. Unfortunately the meds make me sligtly out of it, so driving is not an option. I am trying to take just the ibuprofen- but that just unsettles my stomach. I guess not being able to really open my mouth & really eat will help the weight loss goal I have. *laughs*

hmmm, I have of late started to try n post various writing & photos of mine. It's fun trying to scan old work & post it.

Where the heck is everyone?

Ah well.... laters people

oral surgery.

2006-08-09T00:16:03Z

I am home, very very mellow & goofy.drooling like a baby lol.hurts only if i use a straw, spit, laugh too hard, *only hurts cuz teo teeth were kinda under the gums....sadistic teeth i had...lol.....am fairly coherent....big surprise to my fam,doc, best friend...who by the way drove me despite only having 2 hours sleep *sends love out to jo!* hope the rest of you are good. will talk to you all between med doses lol....if i try after there's no telling what you'll hear *winks*

got my hours cut at work, my boss is trying so hard to save our jobs/his business.....as well as deal with his own horrid year & health issues.

and as a finale only women can truly appreciate.....my monthly sadist decided to visit as well.....lol....thats my three.......now I want my good luck to come running.

enough babbling,

peace..... i'd share the source of mine....but they'd lock me up....LOL

where the h*** is everyone?

2006-08-01T03:01:14Z

jeez, posted on here, noone seems to around.....where are ya?

oddities

2006-07-24T04:29:40Z

So today I spent part of my day with a friend I hadn't seen in awhile. Hadn't seen partly by choice, mostly because I have just been damned busy.
And I keep hearing from people I haven't been in contact with, just out of the blue. Other people, LOL...well I guess I could say they just are too self involved to be bothered....til they want something.
But, I guess it's all in perception....

I write, well, attempt to write poetry- lately though I have had lots of great phrases, but no solid writing jags.....to say I hit a wall is understating it. Any suggestions?
To update other news, got a follow up to my colposcopy on aug 1, oral surgery aug 8, hoping to go see race at richmond sept 10.....
damn this summer has just blasted by.....where'd it go?

eventful day.....

2006-07-13T03:51:03Z

damn what a day......started off with a visit to the dentist...was told i need oral sugery.....*hate the thought of that*....then ended up inadvertantly thwarting thieves...i am glad a new day is on its way LOL

Happy 4th of july....

2006-07-03T01:52:52Z

Yea I know it's early but, hell..LOL Hope y'all have a fun & safe 4th. I gotta work :(....waaaaa !!!!)

another day....

2006-05-25T04:11:53Z

Damn I am hating gas prices.....killing my travelling plans.....think I'll be being masochistic if I post my scribbles up here for opinions?

ahh well hope y'all are havin a great day :)

new on here

2006-05-17T04:05:17Z

here I am ....trying to think of what to say up here......ahh well "hello!